Yes, it’s been a while. I’ve wanted to resume posting here for a long time. But after stepping away from something for a while – a routine, a goal, a sink full of dirty dishes – it gets harder to come back to it for a million reasons. The biggest reason lately is that returning to this blog seemed like too much work. Of course this isn’t really true. The same steps are required. The computer programs haven’t changed, and the files are saved to the same folder. As for content, I have a bunch of photographs that I could post, and there are new paintings and ideas to share.
Yet it is also absolutely true. Rust and dust settle into the cracks and things really do take longer and feel harder. Things I could complete quickly and easily a few months ago now take a bit more time, and it is harder to wade through and find things. Basically, the longer I wait, the more dishes there are to wash.
But most of the challenges are mental, including the mere feeling that things will be harder. And so I take the easy way out and tell myself that I will do it later. And later becomes days, and days become weeks, and suddenly it’s September. However, when I do sit down to write or edit photographs, it really isn’t any harder than it was before. The biggest challenge is just sitting down in front of my computer, pulling up a blank page, starting to type, and feeling like there might be something worth sharing.
Although it isn’t always easy, it isn’t really that hard. So I will try harder. And most importantly, I will just try.